Not Feeling good enough - Part 3

At last!!!

I know what you are thinking… what happened?

Where are those shoes now?

So let me put you out of your misery.

I pushed open the store door, my heart pounding, and my palms sweaty (gross I know). It was bright, warm and bustling and I immediately decided I was going to be ignored as the whole of the shop had scoped out my Next coat and were organising judging parties already.

A young sales assistant approached me with the most warm and beautiful smile I had ever seen. She addressed me in English (I have no idea how they know) and called Adonis over from the back of the store. He had a warm and friendly presence and I started to feel cared for and relaxed slightly.

Gareth was more interested in the girls - his eyes were out on stalks.

Adonis asked if I knew exactly what I wanted, slipped on some white soft gloves, disappeared then reappeared holding the shoe TA-DA!

But where were the ginger pop socks?

This was it, I had about 10 minutes max left in which to make a bolt for the door so I could either escape with my yogic enlightened soul intact or drown in a sea of materialistic bullshit, attached to a pair of impractical, over-priced feet decorations for the rest of my days.

I tried them on, a usual size 4 they were far too big, “I’m not sure if we have a size 3” Adonis said - relief it was a sign.

But they did have a size 3 and I slid my gnarly foot inside.

Practising the yogic yamas is a lifelong journey and much harder to navigate in our Western world. A world which has become so divided and a world where the collective consciousness is attuned to having more.

It’s not about living like a monk in a cave sipping from puddles or licking the odd stone (exaggerate I do well). It’s about being aware and giving much more than you take.

Developing compassion and kindness.

Once in the store, no other world existed for me in that brief time. Suddenly I felt free from my conditioning and everything seemed possible.

Everything expanded and I felt calm and clear.

6 years into my spiritual journey I am different, I am healing and becoming whole. But more than that others are joining me, they are healing too.

We are a tribe of strong-minded women ready to change the narrative.

I am worthy

I am resilient

I am loved.

As you are too.

Thanks for reading,

Take Care,